My brain is not in a happy place right now ... I almost posted this in the Depression board but I'm not depressed in the sense that I don't want to do anything or have anyone bother me.

I'm 69 years old so why would I put my body through the pain it's going through? I could have just been just as happy living out what's left  of my life the way things were. *sigh* 6 to 12 months of recovery time ... geez ...